Seems like all the attempts I've made at my own personally growth have been all for naught...I'm regressing...each and everyday I find myself reverting to me about 12 years ago...back when I was the geeky kid who never had a friend...all I had was school and sports in my life...I played tennis, volleyball, and everything else 6 days a week just to feel ok about myself...it was the only thing that gave me any confidence...

...and here I am today...I can count my real friends on one hand...I'm still in school and unemployed...and I've got no sports to boost my confidence...my ankle is messed up...I can't do anything...where do I even begin to rebuild my confidence?...last weekend's bbq session was probably the best I've felt in awhile...simply cuz I felt like I was part of something greater than my self...as fromagee as it sounds...playing vball and being part of a team really got my spirits up...I really need to hurry up and heal my ankle...I'm miserable as heck...

So maybe it's just me...I'm just obscene...but it feels so empty being me...(sorry...people have brainwashed me into thinking I'm Eminem...minus the confidence)